an avoidence

Hello,

I am tired in the thinking of no one particular thing way. I don't know if you know that feeling. This is why I write to organize my mind. I am also very warm.

I just got back from spring break but this isn't to say I went any where except home. It was nice. I just sat around and relaxed and did the little homework that was given. I watched a lot of T.V. at home, mainly because it was there and I was bored. I don't watch any T.V. here. No one really does. I watch movies online and I surf the web, but I mainly do homework and clean. I even work out some days.

Here I make to do lists and stick to them religiously. I have a calender on my computer that reminds me when things are due. At home I never feel I have to do anything and thus I just go on my whims. I like both ways of life. I love structure and setting small goals and accomplishing them, but I also love doing what I want when I want with the people I want to do things with.

Here I don't leave campus because it is such a self contained community. At home I drive everywhere because nothing is close. I love driving. It is one of my true joys, but I appreciate the convenience of every thing on campus.

This comparison could go on for days, but none of this is really what is in my head and that is worrying about having to make a decision and hurting peoples feelings. I want the let the chips fall as they may attitude but I don't think I can really adopt that for myself.

Ta Ta