Unsure of anything

Hello,

I am sick. I think you should know. It is a very indescribable sick, seeing as I am horrible at describing things I won't even try. This whole sick thing even led to a hospital ordeal, but don't worry that turned out to be nothing.

I haven't been eating and I know I should, so just get off my back. I just feel even more sick after I eat and I have no appetite at all. I am going back into health services, hopefully this time they will help.

I have a lot on my mind also. I talked to Sam this weekend though. That was good. I got a few things cleared up and found out he is deploying. I am not okay with that as you might have guessed. I still also have yet to double check my job. I will do that today.

Finals are coming up and I am barely thinking about them. I only have two that I am worried about, and I will start studying for those this week.

Everyone is excited about summer and going home. I am not and I don't know why. Maybe because I am used to this now. Maybe because it means I finally have to get on with my future and stop this holding pattern. Maybe because I am not sure I will be returning to school with the same intent that I started with. That intent that has been with me since I was 13. That scares me a lot. It is a lot of money that is being shelled out for me to be this unsure.

Oh balls! I have class now.

Ta Ta